Why?

When you're being nice to people. In the end, they will forget you. When they're in trouble, they will find you. When you need them, they're gone. That's life is all about. Life is so unfair. You feel like you wanna lock yourself in the room. Crying crying crying crying. You keep asking yourself. Why? Does he/she hate you? But why? What did I do? You're being so nice to them. Maybe you made mistakes. But people changed. WHEN PEOPLE START HATING YOU, EVERYTHING YOU DO IS IRRITATING TO THEM. You did't know that actually you've hurt someone else until someone told you that. It's sad knowing that they just HATE you or 'tak suka'. Like 'annoying ah kau ni, gedik la, berlagak, bajet etc. Tetttttt. When you said sorry to them, everything went well. But then, it happened again, again and again. Dalam hati cakap 'Asek asek aku. Teruk sangat ke aku ni'. You feel you deserve to be punished. You pretend that you're happy, laugh like an idiot, put a smile on your face, when someone asked you, are you alright? Then you said everything's fine. Don't worry about me, I'm okay bla bla bla. Eventually everything's not okay. At some circumstances, you can pretend that everything's fine. Nobody knows what you've been through just to be there with them. When you're lonely, you need someone so bad, but that person is not there. Waiting for that person to text you, call you. But nadaa. Nothing. Your daddy told you, life is full of pain and forget about what people might think about you. Be confident. Be independent. Be matured. Brave enough to face this life. Not afraid of what people want to say about you. You keep that advices and you've learned your lessons. Always respect people's opinion. Feel free to forgive people and to forget. Do not give high expectations because you might get hurt.